When I Saw Him

The first time I recognized him was from across the cafeteria of my former(a) elevated school. He was decent looking, had nice eyes, and an amazing smile. I had met him at a party a few weeks ago and we had exchanged numbers. My champ told me that Tim had wish me since the showtime of the school year plainly honourable neer acted upon it. Once I showed interest in him he leaped at the opportunity and asked me out. On our first date he took me to a lake and brought his guitar with him. With his beautiful function he started singing a song and playing along conscionable as stunningly.I was so moved by his gesture that I started zest him back. The next few months were magical, and like any ordinary descent the waters started getting a little rough as we got closer. The spend onwards he left for college was very difficult. I was getting shake of him leaving me so I got a little too clingy. We in any case started getting into trouble on more than one occasion. He liked to drink and smoke a little too much and I would get so angry when he would yell at me for ask him to settle down. He would say I wasnt his mom.He was right but I did care about him just as much as she did. He started passage places without me and our communication got more and more limited. When he in the long run left for college is when everything fell apart. During month 10 of our relationship he was going to The New Hartford School of music and later on I found out that he also was selling drugs. Tim did all of the drugs he sold and even a few more. He eventually ran into near trouble with a couple of other drug dealers because he owed them a lot of money.His parents bailed him out and he moved back home. I had a feeling that Tim was getting more and more distant as he continued to go to college. He stopped calling altogether, and even when I called him he refused to answer. Texting became difficult because he wouldnt give me full thoughts or answers. It got to the point wher e we didnt talk for a full week originally I was finally worn-out and drained from putting up with his shenanigans. I broke up with him because he was so confused and messed up by the drugs that he stopped talking to me for a straight week.I apparently dumped him just in time too because a month after he was home he ended up getting arrested and thrown into clink for a number of felonies. I saw Tim change drastically age we were going out and I did not want to follow the wretched path he was going down. I loved him but he had to get his stuff together. I also found out that he was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. We rushed into things both emotionally and physically way too fast. like a shot that I should really get to know a person before I agree to be in a relationship with them.It wasnt just his fault that the relationship fell apart. We both had issues when going into it that we didnt communicate about. His parents did not like me, but they werent the nicest to Tim either. I had legion(predicate) problems of my own being a teenage girl in high school with bullies, school work, and family issues. In order to love someone else, a person has to love him/herself first. Tim and I just had too many problems from the beginning and we needed to focus on ourselves individually before going to fast, but we didnt. Boy, was that a dumb thing to do.